I got four hours of sleep last night and today finds me, three cups of coffee later, feeling a way I haven't in quite some time. It's far too sunny for a nap, and I figure this as good a time as any to take another look at some things that have happened.
IsThisDeception: that's it IsThisDeception: in my doorway IsThisDeception: no kiss goodnight IsThisDeception: no kiss goodbye IsThisDeception: I almost tried IsThisDeception: but when I went in for it my arm pushing myself away from the door made such an awkward noise that I couldn't bring myself up to the cliche' IsThisDeception: maybe that's why things like this happen IsThisDeception: I just don't care. IsThisDeception: and it hasn't hit me yet
IsThisDeception: it sort of hit me a couple days ago IsThisDeception: when I was walking home IsThisDeception: I thought to myself "this is the kind of night that makes me appreciate the warmth of a woman. knowing I can come home and have someone to count on." IsThisDeception: i thought about how I might not be able to count on her all the time IsThisDeception: and it's happenend IsThisDeception: fall is a lonely time to be without IsThisDeception: and it's my favorite time to be alive IsThisDeception: what a terrible mix
IsThisDeception: it won't him me until tomorrow. IsThisDeception: I probably won't cry until tomorrow IsThisDeception: if I can keep myself from doing it now
IsThisDeception: so one of my friends IsThisDeception: just came in my room IsThisDeception: and told me he ran into marie on his way up while she walked towards the train IsThisDeception: I guess she was "pretty broken up about it." IsThisDeception: she was crying IsThisDeception: pretty bad apparently
So Dan Bejar has this new song, well, the album, the Swan Lake thing I guess will be out in a week or so now. But the song, it never really sounded to me like he was singing about much of anything. Then, while I was going back over this, I remembered what Blake had said to me when it was all finally over, when it was over for good.